Here I am. Once Again.

Here I am, Once Again?

I know nothing stays the same...but if you're willing to play the game, it's coming around again. So I don't mind if I fall apart. There's more room in a broken heart. And I believe in love, but what else could I possibly do, I'm so in love with you.

You must not know my name.The purpose of this blog is to document. "I am not a writer. I am not a poet. I am not profound. My words have no substantive value. But I am aware." I have lessons that have been learned and days that have been lived. I am not old. I am not young. I am not naive. I am not wise and I am not unsure. I know what I desire. I know what I desire is not within reach. I know this is alright.

I am not afraid to die. I have lived my life thus far and am not scared of those who can bring merely my flesh to death. Although I respect living, it is this that becomes more difficult than dying. Who says they will die for me? I laugh at them. In mind not body. When somebody lives for me than she shall truly be willing to die for me. Who would I die for? You might find out. But I truly would not die for you unless I am living for you. This seems only right in this mind of mine. And this is the assumptions that I have accumulated over my lifetime.

I have learned many things. I have seen hope, trust, and death. I have been lost. I have been alone all the while being with. I have made tree forts and cookies. I have had shopping cart races and hospital visits. I've worn friendship bracelet's and than I've misplaced them. I've danced all night and snuck out late. I've drank my coffee, my tea, and my beer. I've shared my newest toys, watched the stars, and even made a friend. I've fallen off the trampoline and I've driven just to drive. I've basically seen the world through my eyes that guide me. I've learned a lot, but still can't quite see, why nothing ever happens that makes sense to me. Soon I will learn this.