who will love you
who will fight
who will fall far behind

Occasionally out of nowhere I remember the tiniest memory of you or I’ll do something that I know you would have loved. When that happens, my stomach feels empty and my whole body goes weak. For a moment, I feel as though I need to know where you are or how you are doing. But before I can do anything about it, the moment passes and my stomach once again fills with the feeling of acceptance.